Crazy Beautiful Life

My life has been crazy this past few week. So this blog is going have a lot of random things in it, so here we go!

It all started this weekend when my Aunt Kathy sent me a message asking if I knew that my dad had hurt his eye. Well no I didn't. My dad and I do talk on a pretty regular basis, but things have just been so crazy that I had not talked to him that week. So of course I went into freak out mode because I was not giving any details and could not get in touch with any of my family members. I FINALLY got in touch with dad and he told me all the details. He was cutting grandma's grass when some trash got into his eye. He cut the corner and he now has a fungus and an ulcer in his eye. I have had an ulcer before and it is no fun. So dad sounded pretty bad and told me that he had been to the doctor everyday and was putting drops in every hour. So I was kinda of okay at that point. I also thought that maybe it was not as big of deal as everyone was making it out to me. So I was looking for someone to tell me it was not that bad which I was hoping would be my stepsister Abby because she is one of the most practical people I know. Well guess what? It is bad and still is. Abby used to work at an eye doctor so she knew how severe it was. So here I sit in another state worried to death. I know that there is nothing I can do, but I wish there was. I talked to dad yesterday and he said it was a little better. Because he still has to put the drops in every hour he is not getting much rest which is needed. So please continue to pray as I am praying every chance I get.

Yesterday, as I got to church. I was a wreck. Upset about my dad, upset because yesterday was my Aunt Lisa's birthday and she is no longer with us. I swore that I was going to keep myself together, but that only lasted about 10 minutes after I got into the nursery to talk to my fellow nursery workers and ask them to pray. I am the luckiest girl alive to have such an amazing, supportive, and praying church family here in Boone. I could not be more thankful. Of course God always knows just what we need because yesterday's service was enough to take my focus off of all the craziness around me and just focus on Christ and his love for me. It is so amazing to know that God loves me through my mess, through the hard times, through the pain, through the heartbreak, whatever I have done or will do God will love me no matter what. That love is hard to find. Yesterday I realized that everything will be okay because with God on my side who can be against me? Nobody. I am so grateful for that.

So although this week/weekend has been crazy, I am thankful for it. Thankful that when the storm gets so rough I can still see the son shinning through. So sometimes life is crazy, but it is always beautiful.

Heartbreak

What a crazy week it has been in #720. Before we left for spring break one of my roommates had her heart broken by a stupid guy who wasn't man enough to step and say when he is dating someone else. My other roommate who I am the closest to flies all the way to California to see a boy over spring break and then when she gets back he says he can't handle the distance...really? The last heartbreak happened last night with my other roommate who found out that the guy she was interested in was in another relationship on facebook. About a month ago I was so jealous of my roommates because they were all so happy in their new relationships. Now, I just want to help them. Take away this pain somehow. I know that at times like this all they want to do is cry, be alone, etc. So there is not really much that I can do to help, but I wish there was. I hate seeing them like this especially Taylor because I have never seen her this vulnerable ever. It breaks my heart.

 I am just angry-angry with these boys that think that can lead women on and then drop them like its no big deal. I know that women are way more emotional that men, but when you are constantly flirting, sending signals, etc. men know exactly what they are doing-playing with our emotions. Boys are stupid. I can't even count how many times I have said that to my roommates this week. Is it too much to ask for when a guy likes you for him to come out and say it? Instead of playing this stupid game where the girl replays everything in her head, saying oh he did this because he likes me. Then the guy is thinking that he is acting like nothing more than a friend. This is the reason why relationships have gotten some complicated. What happened to simple courting or dating?

I know that one day all of my roommates are going to find amazing guys who aren't going to treat them the way these guys did. I know that it is hard for them to see that right now because of everything else that is going on. So to my roommates-I love you all! I cannot wait until the day when God brings your prince charming into your life. Then, all of this stupid mess will just be a memory. I am here for you all-whatever you need I am here!

I May Be Slightly Obsessed

I might be slightly obsessed with Brad and Emily. Last night was the season finale of the Bachelor. I have been watching this show for awhile now, but I swore to myself that I was not going to watch it this season because I thought it was stupid that Brad had already been on there once. Well that didn't work out so well because I got sucked in during the second or third week that it was on. I have to say out of all the seasons that I have watched (I have not watched all of them) this is my favorite. I just loved how sweet Brad was with the woman, and honest as well. It didn't hurt that sweet southern belle Emily was from Charlotte (which is near my hometown). So that I had me sucked in because I wanted her to win and she did! I was so excited last night when Brad asked Emily to marry her. That was the sweetest proposal I have ever heard. "Let me be your forever. All it took was coming here and finding you." I thought both of those things that Brad said to Emily were so precious. I think you could really tell how much he loved her. I hardly ever cry at reality shows, but I couldn't help but get a little teary eyed last night. After the final rose was interesting, but I am so glad that Emily was being honest. It is so unrealistic for couples that go on this show to get married right after the show, because you don't really know how you fit together in the real world. I am glad that they are waiting. I do think that Brad and Emily will make it at least I hope so. I just wanted to write out what I thought about all this. Here is a picture from that special moment last night...Enjoy!

 

Spring Break

This probably has been one of the toughest weeks of my life! I had two tests today and still have a midterm that is due tomorrow. I have never really understood why professors pile everything on us the week before spring break, but I guess now I can see why. They all say it is because they want us to be able to enjoy our spring break which is a great thing. I can officially say now that my two tests are over I do feel relieved and that spring break might actually be enjoyable this year.

I was kinda depressed because everyone is going somewhere fun for spring break. Including my amazing roommate is heading to California tomorrow, I am so jealous and so excited for her at the same time! I heard everyone talking today, "Oh I am going on a cruise, or I am going to Florida." Blah..Blah...Blah. Guess where I am going? Yep, you guessed it good ol' Lincoln county! I will be spending my spring break at home with parents while working at the famous BBQ King. Hopefully if I have a few days off in row I will be able to go see my sister in Columbia which we be amazing because it is supposed to be in the 80s there! Hello pool time! I need a tan bad. One of my friends mentioned today that at least I would be making money because when everyone else comes back from their great trips, they are going to be broke and I am not. I thought gosh that is a good point! And don't get me wrong I love my job and I am so thankful that I have a job to come home to.

So as soon as I get my midterm done tonight I will officially be on spring break. Only because I am skipping my two classes tomorrow. I mean really who is going to class on Friday before spring break starts unless they have a test? Not me. So I am blowing out of this town early tomorrow morning and I am thinking about even making a surprise visit to see my mom at her school. Anyway, I am officially dreaming of spring break!

Wishing I was at a beach like this...

But instead I hope to be enjoying the beautiful city of Columbia with...

My amazing sister!!!